Thursday, November 12, 2015

Directions, thoughts and season two of Supernatural

October season was hectic. I threw myself into projects, some that worked, some that failed and some that just never got finished.
The year is winding down, which is being felt the most in the form of the cooking group I'm part of. (I'll come back at the end of next month with the actual list of blog post links for the year's recap of food posts I did for the group over on my movie blog.  As we have one more next month)
I bought a tree. A short, half foot high plastic wired thing at the dollar store, with the intentions of decorating it for Hallowe'en.  Yes, you read that right, not an x-mas tree. Well, it is an x-mas tree in theory because that's the only time they sell them. But it's going to be done in pure Addams Family fashion, and become my Hallowe'en tree. This will actually make it my second one. I had one that got thrown out during my move.

Rebuilding a life when you're at the crossroads of things...movies make it seem so easy. Dude, it's not. From little things like the holiday tree, to having to buy a few new coffee mugs because the old ones got chipped and broken, to just figuring out your place in the grande scheme of it all. Not easy.
I look around and see so many who have either gathered their dreams and made them physical, or who are just drifting through but yet still seem to have roots. You know what I mean?

And you're wondering at this point, what does the tv show Supernatural have to do with it all?  Well, besides the fact that I just got my hands on seasons one and two,  it is like the perfect metaphor for this, well life.  You've got these two guys who have just had their lives turned upside down, learning they are not as different from some people as they always thought, but yet not fitting in anywhere. Always finding the need to hide the core of their purpose, just...yeah this sounds like a stretch even for me with my gift for yammering.  Okay, so try again...two dudes one car all those crossroads.

Did I mention one of my projects is a vampire hunter's kit?  Dude, I'm working on a vampire hunter's kit, meant to be a center piece for my vampire collection. So doesn't fit on the table I bought it for. Too large. But, that's another post for another time.

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Happy Hallowe'en

Just wanted to fly in here my little bat-droppings and wish everyone a happy Hallowe'en.

And if you've missed my 13 Days of Hallowe'en on my movie blog, I have been mixing up the treats with posts both that are Hallowe'en recipes and movies. Days 1-12 are up, with Day 13 coming tonight.  There's even pie.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

The balance of it

The world is constantly reminding us to balance our lives. How many articles over the last 3 decades have been devoted to living our lives more balanced? Hell, whole books on the topic have been written.
But when was the last time you saw something that just talked about why we more often then not end up out of balance and embraced it?

There are parts of our personalities that many of us lean into more then others, creating this unbalanced nature. Times in our lives when we either do things because we become obsessed for short periods of time, or because we're looking for some sort of missing link in our lives.

That spinning out of control world-wind feeling. And yes, for many it will end up showing itself in physical or emotional ways when we get too far one direction or the other, causing us to actually realize that we're out of balance. And then there are a few who never seem to realize the connection. Why they're sick or depressed etc.

Why am I talking about this now?  Because I'm currently out of whack. Yep, I said it. My life is so far off kilter right now that I don't know what way is up.
And I ended up throwing myself into a series of crafting/blogging projects because of it. And of course as always when I do this, they were a complete and utter mess. Just ended up being total dren. I ended up having to redo them anyways.  I got stressed out, which for me always ends up in migraine headaches and body aches, paired with nightmares.

I admit, I get really really competitive this time of year. Other people it's x-mas that throws them into psycho mode, but me it's October season. (yes here October is a season all it's own not a month) I end up feeling like I have to prove myself on a bunch of different levels with the horror stuff and the domestic baking and the happy family Thanksgiving...(remember Canadian Thanksgiving is before Hallowe'en) and here's me falling apart at the end of September. Two weeks sooner then normal too I might add.

For the past month, I've barely blogged. Took such a step back from writing in general in anticipation of October's projects that I actually have started to feel guilty. Blogger's guilt. I don't feel guilt about anything, so why is it this time around something like not posting for a few weeks has me in a near panic?
That would be the out of balance part. So here's me, writing something to start the shift back to a more centered self. And in hopes at lest part of this horrible pounding migraine relaxes an inch.

Monday, August 24, 2015

One of the reasons my city sucks

For a city that has a lot, and I mean a lot of handicapped people, my city isn't really all that designed to be handicapped friendly.

I just watched a guy in a wheelchair, sit for almost three minutes trapped in one of those push-it-yourself- enter/exit carousels.  This was at the grocery. I ended up dropping my basket, going out the one end, coming back through the far door and helping him. God knows how long he would have sat there before anyone bothered to help otherwise.

Little pissed off.  The staff were staring right at him too. Just chatting it up ignoring him and their actual jobs.

As someone who's spent over half my life dealing with canes/crutches/wheelchairs myself, I can tell you how frealing frustrating it is to be needing something/get somewhere in this city when you're alone and end up finding yourself unable to do whatever it was because the place you need to go isn't equipped for someone with a handicap.
It's enough to cause you to break down and cry at times. In public.

The city council and the like talk all the time about how wonderful our health care staff are...that's fine and good, but there is a honest shortage of home care workers. 

I've ranted enough for today.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

now I'm heartbroken

I was feeling nostalgic and went to look at some old videos my friends and I had made, which were on one of our old websites, only to find they are missing. When I went to the old photobucket account, it says the account is empty.
What the hell???  I know they were uploaded in 2006 but still...

Anyways, those videos are lost forever as are the photos from that time frame in my life. In an odd strange way, I guess it's the universe's way of telling me it's beyond time to get over that point in my life. Those people as much as I loved them, have long since moved on in their lives.

This is what happens when you don't pay attention to those you care about, you find yourself in front of a blank account.  The love gone, the memories wiped clean and yourself scratching your head.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

July 29th 2015

I've just returned to using facebook after 5 years of if you are in the Thunder Bay area and would like to book a tarot reading with me, you can do so either through my profile (on the sidebar here) or by the Bliss Cafe Thunder Bay page. 
The readings at the Bliss Cafe are normally on Friday afternoons.  But I don't limit my bookings to just that.  Which is why I have returned to using facebook myself, to make it easier for people to book outside of Bliss Cafe if they find Fridays are not good for them.

Shameless promotion out of the way...

We have a second Full Moon this weekend. Which makes it a Blue Moon. I think I mentioned it the other week on's significant on a few levels. One being that this weekend is Lammas, and because it changes the order of the way the season's moons are counted. (yeah I still don't understand that part myself. New Moon then Full Moon turns to Full Moon then New Moon. Or something)

Monday, July 27, 2015

July 27th 2015 Ugh!

So I had a nasty computer virus, and have been without a computer for the last 4 days.  It's amazing how much housework you can get finished when you don't have the computer to distract you.  Though, went a bit stir crazy for the first few hours. Kept automatically walking into the area of the apartment that I've been using for my computer zone, automatically putting my coffee down and then have to snap out of autopilot cause, the desk was empty. Right, and since I do not have internet on my phone;  I spent half my time calling my mother asking her to look stuff up. Not the slickest moments of my weekend.

I did manage to get a sewing project half way completed. So that's bonus. Only problem now, there are way too many emails to stiff through.

And of course, it had to happen on a weekend when the temps were +29C with +39C humidex, so it was a staying indoors sort of weekend. Not that I take my pale self outside too often anyways.
We're sitting currently at +30C with a +40C...melting would be the catch phrase of the day.

Okay, just really wanted to post something after having been without a computer...

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