Saturday, December 15, 2018

Can I scream now?

Stats: it's a Saturday Dec 15th 2018 a few days from the Winter Solstice/Yule.
        : we are 320 Days away from next Hallowe'en.
        : the weather around the planet is very unpredictably unusual.
        :being sober has given me massive writers block.

Okay, now with that out of the way, my lovely Spudguns!, how are you all?  I don't even find me funny anymore. The kind of blog post that used to take me twenty minutes to write, now takes me two days. The kind of blog post that used to take me five hours to write, now takes me two weeks. The endless sea of gimmicks no longer jive. Never mind the fact I haven't written anything uncensored offline in over five years. I do think that might be part of it...having to censor myself for the blogs. Anyways.

Too much quiet reflection can make you sick of things. I know I sort of bitched and complained while back about not being able to really promote myself the way I see others doing it. And that still pretty much stands. I can't keep that smile plastered to my words in that can do attitude, because I am not hotwired that way...or is it wetwired...maybe its just that as a member of Generation X, we are all slackers. Yeah, let's go with that idea.

What an idea eh? A generation that spent it's whole time defining what made it -it. From movies like Singles, Reality Bites, and Slacker, to that whole grunge vs metal vs hip hop thing. And now, this current generation are semi-living it all live on the internet. Dude, just between you and me, I have no idea what they are calling this generation now?  Millennials or Echo Boomers, or Gen Z or whathaveyou?    Gen Z. Just makes me think of zombies. Gen-Zoms. Well, it fits doesn't it? My generation was all about Dracula, this generation is all about Walking Dead. Totally fits.

As I work through my lack of self respecting silent aggression; I hope everything is shinny where you are today.

kiss kiss noise.

Monday, September 10, 2018

And then there was the Monday

The Swords keep popping up in the tarots the last week and a half. Like the whole suit all the time, no matter how much I shuffle.  The Swords are about rational thought, logical directions, separation, overthinking. The cards of the mind. I've talked before about how when the universe wants me to understand something, or even pass a message on to someone else, the cards will repeat like this until I do.  It's one of those situations.  So on with it...the Ace of Swords and the Queen of Swords have been plaguing me. I'm not in the mood to get into complete detail about them, so the highlights are...Queen equals separation, widow, divorce and independence. Ace equals conquest, force, champion, arguments.   All in all, cold and sometimes angry cards.

We are 51 Days till Hallowe'en.

Saturday, August 25, 2018

August 25th 2018 knuckles

Knuckles. As in, I just spent the day in the emergency because I dislocated two fingers. Trust me, typing is difficult as I can't use my one hand. Picking at the keys is not fun.  Yes, my lovely Spudguns!, I've done it again. Injured myself. The doctor told me that nothing was broken, but then proceeded to slap a half cast on my arm that went all the way to my elbow.

For two knuckles that according to him were not broken...doesn't make sense to me either.

We are 67 Days till Hallowe'en.

Okay, that's about all I can handle right now...get it I'm going to end this little note right here, just wanted to run in for a moment and type something.


Wednesday, August 1, 2018

Aug 1st 2018

Hello my lovely Spudguns!  Somehow, a month has past. I didn't mean for it to but somehow, it did.

Okay, so where were we last time...yes; the writer's block. Still struggling with that. Today marks 91 Days till Hallowe'en, and I am hoping to start Hallowe'en shopping this week. The stores here normally have stuff out by now, but for some reason, they haven't yet. I have some crafting projects I'm hoping to get completed once they do.

Last movie I saw was actually at the cinema. I went on Friday the 13th of July, opening day actually even more a rare treat for me, to see Hotel Transylvania 3 Summer Vacation. I have my review for it up on the movie blog.

Tonight's the final episode of  The Originals. I'm not ready for that. I'm just not ready to loose yet another one of my favourite tv shows. I'm really hoping for some big twist with at lest one or two of the characters. I know there is going to be a spin off in the fall, but it's looking to be geared for younger audiences, where as The Originals was hitting for an older crowd.

The weather here the last few weeks has been in the +30'C with near +40'C humidex. I can't handle that kind of heat. I suffer from migraines and it's left me hiding in a darkened room.

Well, that Spudguns!, covers the updates.

Crossroads. I talked a bit about this lately. About how this is a big year of change for so many astrologically speaking. I am sure, I'm not the only one who has done some soul searching and digging into their future desires as of late. And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who's made a decision about where they want to be in their life over the next few years...but just not too sure how to make that change happen?
When you're not even sure how to put into words what it is you are hoping for?

That's about where I am right now. And I keep turning to my tarot cards looking for away to voice what I can't seem to. Dude, it's almost as bad as the writer's block itself.
The card that keeps popping up more often than anything else is the Fool card.  A card about crossroads and following your dreams.

So, basically, my answer is my question?  See how that can be a bit confusing.

I'll let that be my ramble for today. And say that my facebook page (here) is still the best way to keep up with me, to get in touch and to just hang out. I've been counting down all year long for Hallowe'en. Yes, I've actually managed to countdown every day without a miss. More than amazing on my end. I've been doing my best to keep the weekly quiz and quotes on schedule.

I will be back very soon. Hopefully sooner than this last time.

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

Random Day Wed July 4th 2018

We are 119 days till Hallowe'en.

Dear Spudguns!  Yeah I don't know what I'm doing?  I've hit another bit of writer's block, and if you've been following my movie blog the last few weeks, you can tell. My life has been busy, which is nice for a change, but it's left my mind blank. And my creative efforts are falling flatter than usual.

I was on Instagram just now, hoping some cooking gramers would inspire me, but instead I ended up just breaking down in a near batch of tears. I say near, as I didn't cry but came damn close.

When I started this bloggy blog, my original intention was to do recipes and crafts from a more Addams Family approach. You know, like a gothic Martha Stewart or something. But, as I learned, I suck. I've embraced my suckage at arts crafts and cooking, doing it anyways. Here's the thing, just between you and me; there are hundreds of others out there that sprang up over the last few years who are a million times better at it then I ever could be. Yeah, that nugget of golden silence was a slap to the ego I must say.

Put simply, I'm jealous.

Over the last decade and a half that I've been online doing what I've done, be it reviews for books/movies/wrestling, the recipes, the personal diaries/vlogs, the comedic posts, or the columns etc, I've done the one thing you should never do. Compare myself to those around me.

Bad me. Bad bad bad. I should never have done that. But, it's human nature. Sometimes we can get ahead of it and stop ourselves, and sometimes we fall into the pit of despair.

This is a big year of change for a lot of people. Astrologically speaking, this is a massive crossroads for half the people on the planet. Everyone will be feeling something, to some degree. But not everyone will be feeling the urge to do something about it.
As I stand at my personal crossroads of doubt and uncertainty; I can only assure myself that movement is good.

This became a bit of a ramble. Okay, I'll try to get back later in the week to this blog. With something. I have no idea what? Just, something. Hopefully, by that point I'll have written something for the week on the movie blog too. Keep your paws/claws/parts crossed that my writer's block is temporary.

And I guess this is the part where I tell you to not forget about my facebook page. (here)  Till later.

Monday, June 4, 2018

Random Monday June 4th 2018

We are 149 days till Hallowe'en on the countdown calendar. And I just spent an hour on facebook, searching for something I couldn't find.
Pretty typical as of late for me. Searching, searching, searching, looking but not finding. I've been having that happen a lot lately, I'm lost in the details of things. I will get up in the morning, decide that I want to post about something, and get so wrapped up in trying to create the right photo or hashtag or whathaveyou, that by the time I look at the clock again, it's just too late. Either too many people have beat me to the topic cause everyone live streams, or I just simply lost interest.

Like my videos. I promised you guys new stuff. And I did create some Vlogs and Video Reviews. Which, I in a timely fashion and totally not like my lazy arse at all, posted to my movie blog and facebook in May. Just by the time I did that, thought "why post them again?"  So they never made it to this blog.

I subscribe to a newsletter that I rarely get, and therefore always completely forget I've subscribed to until it pops into my emails every so often. And the crazy of it is, the person is local. Yeah, I have been brutally honest with my lack of local interest. Cause, well my city blows man. But, this morning, that newsletter reached my inbox, and the topic was about how we need to live in the details more.

Live in the details more. Ironically, it made a lot of sense. And the timing of it well...the universe is talking and I need to listen little closer.

Monday, April 23, 2018

Saturn and Pluto and me

As I look outside my living room window this morning, the sun is bright, there are birds on the lawn, mostly seagulls picking up the trash but birds none the less, and I am feeling the opposite of the weather. I don't feel bright and shinny. 
Part of that is just me feeling emotionally exhausted, physically in constant pain and plain old annoyed.

Saturn went retrograde middle of last week and will continue to be until July.  Pluto just went retrograde yesterday and will stay that way until August.
Both these planets deal with rewards, goals, and illusions/manipulation.  This means a lot of depressed people and situations for the next few months.  A good chunk of the world's population will be struggling to stay afloat during this time.

This equals an extremely busy time for astrologers and tarot readers. 

Okay, before this gets anymore depressing on my end, we're 191 Days till Hallowe'en. And I'll catch you in a few.

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